EACH week seems to come around quicker which is a good thing. I have had a mixed week again but I won’t tire you with my parental struggles. I am putting it down to having a teenager and another child who is extremely mature in some ways, but yet just a girl and far more complex.
I was brought up to get on with things and not to complain about the hand life has dealt you. If you can’t change it, get your head down and get on with things and if you don’t like it and can change it… well do something about it but don’t expect the rest of the world to sort your life out.
I thank my parents for the way they brought me up. They were and are loving, kind, constant and always interested in me and my progress.
They tirelessly put all their effort into bringing me and my sister up to be the best that we could be and to treat others as we would wish to be treated.
Well I consider myself a good mother but I don’t think I come close to my parents. I owe them so much. The values and the strength that they instilled in me have enabled me to face life and my cancer without fear.
People are constantly trying to reassure me that it is more than likely that I won’t die as a result of cancer and if I do, I have a good few years yet. I know their intention is to give me ‘hope’ but honestly I am positive I will not die as a result of cancer.
I have two more chemo-therapy sessions to go and the overriding emotion that wells within me is one of happiness. As far as I am concerned, I do not have cancer. The treatments are merely to ensure there are no rogue cells bouncing around my body. Soon I will move onto radiotherapy, which will be a localised zapping of the area from where the tumours were removed.
Once the summer is out I will then be able to start rehabilitation on my right arm and then move on to periodic checks. I can look forward to having hair, eyebrows and eyelashes again. Hopefully they will have grown back by then.
I will feel stronger and will be able to start to set realistic goals for myself in terms of my career and personal life. I would like to do something charitable in the name of cancer. What that might be I don’t know yet. I have time to contemplate it.