I SIGNED off my last blog feeling more than a little under the weather. I have likened my chemotherapy to an assault course in the past and until recently I had been metaphorically jumping over walls and racing along at a great pace.
Last week I seemed to get a little stuck in the cargo netting! Not to worry as nothing lasts forever.
Finally my body seemed to kick into action and my defence system rallied and my fever dissipated.
My dear friend Pepi called me to see if I was up to having a visitor. It was just what I needed so she came over. It was a beautiful sunny day and just sitting having tea and chatting with Pepi made me feel so happy.
The small things take on greater importance when life changing events happen so now I appreciate every little happy moment.
It was Andalucía Day so we went up to the football club. My son was playing in a ‘friendly’ match. Wonderful Spanish music accompanied by a healthy portion of paella was just what the doctor ordered.
We spent the afternoon there and then a quick ice-cream on the way home.
I was starting to feel tired so went to bed and fell asleep.
Sunday dawned and I really felt so much better. I decided as it was another lovely sunny day that I would flash up the BBQ. Jorge was coming over and wasn’t expecting a BBQ so that would be a nice surprise.
He had just finished training in the gym and sent me a message to say he was on his way, extremely happy at the prospect of chorizo, chicken wings, burgers, pinchitos and the like!
He wasn’t the only one… we all love a BBQ!
I always like to mention the special people in my life. I have to thank Jorge so much for all his support and love.
He really does understand what I am going through because he is also a cancer survivor. I draw great strength from having him by my side.
I am now in the last week in the run up to chemo session number six.
I do feel like there is light at the end of the tunnel, but still have a further two treatments to go and probably the toughest yet.
I busy my head with thoughts of better days and of all the things I plan to do. For me the outlook is good despite everything that has happened to me and to us as a family.
I strongly believe in remembering the good times, enjoying the here and now and looking forward to the future.
Any other philosophy just wouldn’t be helpful. Lamenting your ill fortune or asking why me is frankly a waste of time and energy.
It sounds so simple, but honestly thinking positive thoughts really does bear fruit.
My plan for this week is to hug my children lots! And to tick off a few things on my ‘list to do’! I will above all rest, eat well and keep my fingers crossed that I will be in shape for my next treatment.